ajayinthedark | Entries tagged with dream

TBH, I think this is a good scene to dissect as the inaugural ONBB director’s cut. It has delicate and precarious RenLe (my favourite flavour of them), 7Dream, people’s princess Daegal, and the works. The assessment of RenLe being the most distant from each other here out of the whole fic is definitely accurate, because all three major story arc points (the engagement lie, Renjun’s struggle with adult stability, and Chenle’s fear of commitment) coalesce in the messiest way possible. In my outline, it’s the scene in the direct middle of the fic, and the brickwork path for the ending are all set in place here: let’s walk down it!
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Current Music: niki - "take care"

Although I wouldn’t say I have a favourite scene from this fic, this scene definitely has my favourite dialogue in the whole fic. The nonlinear timeline of this fic was crafted by having both Chenle’s character arc and Mark’s character arc running side by side (Chenle’s in the past and Mark’s in the presence) and I think this scene is the climax of Chenle’s character arc (Mark’s climax being running away after the shower, and the whole fic’s climax being the 7-Eleven fight). By all technicalities, not a lot actually happens in this scene, but I tried to cram a lot of feelings into it, all the little details I was going to draw upon later. It’s a loaded one!
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Current Music: niki - "odds"

The first draft of this scene was written on the New Year's Eve-Day of 2023-2024, and it originally wasn't going to be part of this fic at all. I had planned a completely different fic for my ChenMark fest entry (that I will not tell you about, because hopefully it gets written sometime in the future), but I was bouncing around a lot of parties that week, and that liminal-y vibe really stuck with me, and I had to type it out. This is the start, really.
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Current Music: niki - "chilly"

While figuring out how to write this fic, one of the first things I told the three friends (Vee, Sunny, and Mary) about this fic was "it's gonna be kinda angsty i really want them to punch each other". This specific punch scene has been more planned out than, like, the entire fic. I must've rewritten this specific scene ten different times though. I'm really not an angst writer! Here's a deep dive into me explaining how I really am not an angsty writer hahaha.
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Current Music: eden - "about time"

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Current Music: sabrina claudio - "homegirl"

Unironically, this confession scene is one of my favourite scenes across everything I've ever written. It encapsulates everything I like writing (romcom, planetary symbolism, lots and lots of figurative language, etc.) in a style that represents me perfectly. Confessions are always trickier for me to write, because I struggle with strong bouts of emotion, but this one came so naturally to me, it made writing every word a delight.

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Current Music: les misérables original broadway cast - "in my life"

I genuinely belive Out of the Bag is the best fic I've written so far. Despite the fact that I was racing the 323fest calendar and my own teetering burnout, I genuinely had so much fun putting this together, and it showcases a lot of what I think are the best aspects of my writing: ridiculous and longwinded metaphors, literature references, Chenle being stupidly sexy, et cetera et cetera. Out of the Bag is sort of like my entire personality put on a plate and served warm, and it means the world to me that it was so well received :,) This scene in particular has got to be one of my favourite things I've ever written, and here's why.( Read more... )

Current Music: keshi - "magnolia"

Out of all the flashbacks in the fic, this one carries the most weight, and it was one of the few scenes I had in mind before I started writing. Despite being close to the middle of the fic, this scene draws together most of the symbols and repeated phrasing I use and makes them the most prominent; it's here, when paying attention to the rhetorical devices becomes easier and everything starts clicking together, just like things do for Chenle and Donghyuck.( Read more... )

Current Music: les misérables original broadway cast - "on my own"

Something I only started to articulate this year is what I’ve dubbed the “perfect boy paradigm”, and as with all things in my life, I’m relating it back to 7dream.

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Current Music: mark lee - "child"

This was so serious for me. I started typing this on my phone, then got too into it and opened my laptop to retype and finish this...

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Current Location: rydell high school
Current Music: grease original broadway cast - "it's raining on prom night"

I have to be honest, I don't know Newsies as well as I know grease BUT here we go...

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Current Location: the streets of brooklyn
Current Music: newsies original broadway cast - "carrying the banner"

Listen, you have no idea what you've unleashed; out of every musical I've ever enjoyed, I think I fell the deepest into Heathers... the other fan casts had wiggle room for interpretation but this? Does not. This is objective. I don't want to hear a single word.

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Current Location: westerburg high school
Current Music: heathers original broadway cast - "beautiful"

Pulling up with my "I read the brick" bullshit (which I have, twice) for this one. I love you Rei, I hope you know that.
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Current Location: le café musain
Current Music: les misérables original broadway cast - "one day more"

Genuinely, I didn't start liking The Confession until after I published it and comments kept saying how much they enjoyed it. I thought it was too monologue-y, with random humour that detracted from the tone, and it didn't balance the plot elements of interest well, and no matter how much Rose, my beta, gassed it up, I couldn't help but despise this scene. I was like, three days away from the fest deadline, though, so I submitted it and rolled with the punches. Confession scenes have always been hard for me because it involves a level of intimacy with the characters I don't always feel like I have, especially with something so close to IRL like idolverse. After seeing the warm reception though, I'm glad I kept it the way I did. ( Read more... )

Current Music: nct 127 - "윤슬 gold dust"

The reason why The Cargument, as I've lovingly dubbed it, is one of my favourite scenes in Understanding Astrophysics is because one of my biggest weaknesses when it comes to writing is intensity. If you're even vaguely familiar with anything I write, you know that it's all low stakes, low tension, low angst stuff, so scaling it up for this fic was for sure one of the most challenging things I've ever written. The first draft of this scene was done all in one night, the first half furiously scrawled out on a sheet of 1/16 in grid paper, the rest typed up in an OhWrite room at the speed of light (150 wpm). I had 10 assignments looming over me, I'd been ghosting Rose, my beta, for over a week, and Mercury had just entered retrograde. The fact that I managed to crank this out, and the fact that the next day, I leaned back in my desk and thought, "Well shit. This isn't half bad." was a miracle on Earth. ( Read more... )

Current Music: ardhito pramono - "i just couldn't save you tonight" (feat. aurélie)

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Entries tagged with dream

old, new, borrowed, blue - the engagement party

double-barreled shotgun: chenle's birthday

double-barreled shotgun: new year's eve party

double-barreled shotgun: 24-hour 7-eleven

inhale, exhale: jacket cover

stars in their multitudes: the confession

out of the bag: the confession

stars in their multitudes: "i think i'm in love with renjun"

markus lee and the perfect boy paradigm

grease dreamers

the dream boys

heathers: the k-popsicle

les rêveries

understanding astrophysics: the confession

understanding astrophysics: the cargument

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little sun (derogatory)